I cried tonight, I laughed out loud, I sat and stared into the flame. There are so many moments in a moment and right now the full spectrum of aliveness calls me within. I wanted to share with you a letter I wrote to our Joan of Sparc community that encapsulates this moment for me. Not all sides of it, not the intrinsic transformative fluid nature of what occurs inside the chrysalis walls… yet, there is a hint of what is to be.
Read MoreInside of each one of us is a vision of life. It is unique, it is bold, and it is empowered by the grace that beats our hearts. Your particular vision is one for the ages, the essence of which has been touched by every molecule that you are. All the blood, sweat, and tears you have experienced as a human being brushes its DNA upon the effervescent and indescribable nature of your embryonic light of mind. It is both a duty and a service to live this into reality. Where are you in the journey of your becoming? This moment feels weighted with divine fire. The energy is pressing each one of us to the edge of our discomfort. This is growth. This is right now…
Read MoreIn this moment, anticipation runs hot...like a fever. The temperature rises as Mars and Uranus come together in exact conjunction with today’s moon in the realm of Taurus. The United States is inaugurating a new president and the world is on the edge of their seats. Some are waiting to exhale, others’ to see if their conspiracy trip manifests at last. Today is a day to remember, and much like every other day in this fearless decade, it is a day of powerful change.
Read MoreI’m enveloped in a tempest of torrential empathy. Heartbreak abounds. Underneath the anger, blame, and confusion there exists a deep wound, a festering and blistering laceration gushing in the daylight for all to smell--- and it is psychological. Although we are very much engrained to look to sides for an answer, if we go within, we may find that both “sides” are there. The exalted and the frightful, the noble as well as the unspeakable exist inside the psyche. As within so without. Are we willing to see the hatred that infects our unconscious? This is a good time for prayer. Eventually, amidst the journey of our own humanity, we will have to bear witness to that which we have avoided. Right now in the current episode of “This Is America”, we have an incredible scene to chew on, digesting some and vomiting the rest.
Read MoreAs 2021 is now upon us, it’s obvious that some of the astrological forecasts are on point. I feel the electric surge only gearing up as one consistent shock after another sparks new layers of release. Perhaps I didn’t fully let-it-all-go at the end of 2020 since I’ve been busy digging deep, excavating my startup in preparation for rebirth. Instead, I’m innovating in the resolution sphere as my whole life consists of everyday resolve. Streamline is my word for this year...what is yours?
Read MoreThis year of years has proven to accelerate every other process in its wake. What do I mean by this? When we are in a crisis, regardless if it is personal or global, we are forced to reconcile with what is truly important. Priorities are highlighted amidst the necessity to remain centered while navigating the challenging terrain of the unknown.
Due to the lack of linear form we have now entered within the portal of this new decade, there is no particular order of lessons to discover. Each cosmic teaching disguised within the mundane is a world of its own, each moment a continuation of the one before and a prequel to the movie of our future. While on the river of deep gratitude one has the opportunity to arrive at the basecamp of what is Awesome. May that which we have learned in this past year prepare us for what has yet to come.
Read MoreThe natural inclination to withdraw from external stimulus arrives with the North winds upon the cusp of autumn and winter. As this year has proven to be anything but “normal,” it is quite possible that we could even overlook this very personal invitation to reflect.
Just because we may find ourselves in lockdown or hunkered in doesn’t mean we won’t be seeking to distract ourselves. For many, our senses are nearly numb with controversy and the holidays will look vastly different than in previous years.
Read MoreBeyond the lit candle sparkling a dance upon the cloth circular womb of this Mongolian yurt I write from tonight, there lies the shadow, inevitable in nature. This time of year aches for deep reflection and with 2020 coming to a close, there is endless material to digest in contemplative thought. While many of us seek refuge from the exposure of such density and corruption that has literally come to light in recent times, I find myself invited to explore more of what lurks underneath.
Read MoreIn the present day epic unfolding of what I have perceivably known as my life, I can only give thanks and more thanks for what is currently revealing from within. Tests, there have been many, will certainly continue to appear upon the path ahead. Yet at this moment when I had nearly lost my footing while immersed in waves of circumstantial exhaustion, a bold new light of resonant power illuminates my inner darkness and despair. The unconscious is exorcised as I dutifully surrender to the gift at hand and lean into the brilliance of my steadfast faith.
Read MoreIf you are “in question” you are in good company. I would actually like to know who out there is not questioning authority, regulations, the government, leaders, relationships, marketing, media, where your food comes from, your beliefs, and everything else within you that speaks up, provokes, and generates internal dialogue?
Read MoreHappy glorious new moon in Scorpio marked with a swiftness upon the horizon. Mars is the god of war and also refers to a planetary body that rules over our actions, aggressions, and masculinity. With this fierce warrior planet now direct after a long Mars retrograde through its home sign of Aries, we may finally access the realm of decisiveness, clarity, and revivalist chutzpah that has been lacking the past several months. Emerging from a chaotic deep-dive review of our beingness, we will be gaining speed by the day while noting the revelatory insights gleaned from our recent past.
Read MoreNews: As of this moment, we have a new President-Elect! Firsts: We have the first Madam Vice President in the history of our nation, black, Southeast Asian, and forging a path for women everywhere. Old News: Our incumbent is still ranting tweets from his Golf Course. “Fake” (can’t be true) News: Weasel lawyers trying to eke out a false win for the arrogant behemoth ego in office, claiming election fraud at Four Seasons Landscaping by mistake (Mercury Retrograde). Speculation: A coup is on the horizon. Without a concession speech and without Republicans giving the nod to our President-Elect, where do we go from here with Uranus at the helm?
Read MoreEach of us is an embodiment of relationship; relationship with God, ourselves, family, lovers, community, our world, and even the stars above. Without one another, we would be sovereign heartbeats looking for love aimlessly in order to know ourselves. We need each other. There is no actual alone, there is no true independence. And this Taurean full moon will remind us of this truth, as the veil continues to thin while the sun’s rays of Scorpio are cast across the night sky.
Read MoreThis is an epic question in a moment of fierce polarization, within a country that refers to itself as “United”. I wonder for how long have we actually been divided in our thinking, preferences, priorities, and intentions as a nation? How long have we been living under a false pretense that everything is “fine”? And who is “we” anyway? Can we group together 331M culturally independent people and assume we are truly all working towards the same future? Would you define our culture as cohesive? The clock is ticking until secession begins.
Read MoreOur mental health is at risk.
We are living through a societal dissolve and there within invites an epic scene of chaos. Perspective is King. How will we navigate these waters? Some will not, others will cling to a “side” for dear life (or to viciously fight for or against as a way to justify violence), and few will go deep within to resource from that which is greater for understanding, clarity, perspective, courage, and faith. Faith is cultivated from experience beyond belief. What do you currently believe?
Read More“I feel within me a consuming fire of heavenly love
Which has burned up in my soul everything that was contrary to itself
And transformed me inwardly into its own nature.”
-William Law
What isn’t extraordinary about 2020 could be a better question. We have officially “left the building” as a society, or perhaps have sailed into the great unknown of uncharted territories. Either way, the structures of old, past ways of being, our false sense of security, and the times of “uniting” within our country are behind us. We are in a new room. And it is a revolution in the making.
The wind is stirring, the leaves are rustling, the moon is blasting, and the planets are squaring. Change is in the air. It seems there is a deep “missing” of life before 2020 for many humans on the planet, and this full moon in Aries conjunct Chiron is only going to illuminate those wounds while rubbing them with salt. The future is upon us with every new waking day and truly, if we think it is difficult now, we should count every blessing of every moment of the now. Challenge awaits us.
Read MoreHave you ever stared into a stone and asked it to share the mysteries of its life? Or tried to imagine the journey it has lived, mined from the center of the earth to now sitting on your desk staring back at you? It’s not that I am bored and have nothing to do, trust me, it’s just that there is something intrinsically profound about the weighted cosmic majesty I experience when meditating with my Lapis Lazuli.
Read MoreDo you have time to fret, waste, or to be distracted? No, we don’t have time for this. To numb out, escape, or fall prey to conspiracy? No, definitely not. To complain, point fingers, name call, or blame? Nope, not that either. How about to wallow in self-pity, luxuriate in self-importance, or sit back and watch while the fabric of the world as we know it comes undone? Even if it is time for a bit of undoing, still the answer is no.
What about time to be distraught? Unsettled? Or challenged? Yes, yes we do have time for this. We don’t want to remain here forever, however, we can accept that this is a natural state of internal affairs to meet the unsettling challenges externally.
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