What Is a Silent Luxury?
Moments ago I laid down on my floor and let every part of me sink into the gravitational pull toward earth. As I was scanning my body, I could clearly feel the areas of tension accumulated from holding myself upright, not to mention the impact of the stresses of daily life. Lying in the horizontal plane is not something I have done much of these past few months as I’ve been sleeping in more of a meditative posture and not by choice. It has been wild to witness the fury of my body undergoing duress as I continue to be processed in the meat grinder of life. Ok, a little dramatic but sometimes it feels like that and it is better to laugh with a twist of dark humor (thanks Pluto) than to not laugh at all…
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What Is Changing?
Astrologically, 2023 is poised as a revolutionary year with a spotlight on Pluto, Saturn, and Jupiter providing the scene for the micro and macro tectonic shifts that will carry us through into the rest of this decade. This is not about being comfortable. Although I am tempted to say something about how challenging and radical this moment is as an indicator of the sea change…it is hard to compare “these times” with all times throughout history because, let’s be honest, when has being human ever been easy? Whether dealing with predators, plagues, sanitation, natural disasters, wars, tyrants, and the most challenging of all, ourselves (our ego and the indications of said ego), there has always been an antagonist nipping at our heels…
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Where Art Thou Temperance?
When you are walking through Hell…keep going! Why does this thought make me laugh so hard? Because it is so obvious? Or maybe because when you know the temperature of the inner hell realms so intimately that just thinking of them sears your flesh, the only options are to laugh or cry. I don’t know but maybe there is something about the dichotomy of opposing forces that does bring us to the middle path. Pain and suffering on one end versus joy and laughter on the other. Perhaps somewhere in between is where the homeostasis of being resides, and from there, it is only human to taste the flavors of said emotional spectrum…
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Is There a Spirit of Vulnerability?
You know how people say...”In the spirit of _fill in the blank_?” In the spirit of Christmas, teamwork, frothy matcha with housemade almond milk, etc. Well, tonight I am reflecting on my moment and this rambunctious lunar eclipse befalling us and in the spirit of vulnerability, I would like to share some of mine with you. Deep sigh. Ok…it has been a very challenging couple of months for me. I feel that I’ve been consumed by a literal fire within my body that has truly challenged me on every level. Health is wealth, my Godfather always says, and it is true! And lately, I’ve been feeling a bit impoverished in this area while going through a compost phase of sorts…
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Are You Uncomfortable Enough?
Comfort is a curious thing. I’ve noticed just how eager I am to feel it, especially in times of distress or when I feel deeply uncomfortable due to whatever the circumstance, illness, challenge, etc happens to be. There is a register, almost an internal yearning for homeostasis, that seeks comfort as one would a soft blanket to melt into. However, when is it that true change of mind, thought, action, attitude, and beliefs, occur? Certainly not in a state of comfort…
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How Does Your Lava Flow?
As willing as one is to see, this new moon in Aries (a truly rare hybrid eclipse on all levels) will pierce the veils to the inner realms of knowing thy self. The question could be, how willing are you? In my bones, in the cells of the marrow of my bones, I am receiving a very deep invitation to change. And not just my mind about something in particular, or a habit, but to see myself as I have never before and in seeing what I cannot unsee, I am now tasked with a new responsibility to do something about it…
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Where Is Safe?
Or maybe, “To read the headlines or not to read the headlines, that is the question.” I recall a conference years ago where Alberto Villoldo, amongst others, was speaking on prophecy, shamanism, climate change, etc. He spoke about the changing times and the impulse for us as humans to seek refuge from natural disasters, wars, and intolerable temperatures, offering the example of someone seeking to get away from land swept by fire only to be devastated by floods somewhere else. His eventual point, there are no “safe places”…
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Am I Healing?
I've been reflecting under this Libra full moon opposing Chiron (the wounded healer), as I've been enduring a very challenging moment of being human. I'm recognizing the fragility as well as the resilience of this incredible body and its capacity and willingness to be honest above and beyond my own self-deception. I’m learning that whatever it is that I’ve been avoiding, especially unconsciously, has created deep ravines and patterns that can be traced throughout my family lines in physical form. Typically we call them hereditary manifestations. Now that it’s my turn, I get to explore the true significance of what that means. Not just for me and my life and what it is that I have to change, but I’m learning about the consequences of individual and familial karma and how that plays out on the stage of the body…
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Will You Be Mine, AI?
Or not? Honestly, I am feeling very resistant, almost tantrum-esque in wanting to pause the AI takeover that is actually already happening. I guess I was that person who didn’t want a cell phone either and then kept a flip phone for as long as I possibly could. I still have never been on TikTok and loathe social media even though I am a part of its mayhem as a “user”…
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What Is a Birthday?
Time of birth is determined by the moment that the entire length of the body, from the head to the toes of the baby is outside of the mother’s body. This reminds me, at one point, each of us reading this right now spent many months inside another body (our mother) doing nothing other than coming into form as a human being. This is a radical reality that often lives outside my focused awareness somehow…
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Does It Matter?
I’m staring at a paradox inside my mind. On one hand, when I pull back into an intensely objective state I sense a realization that none of “this” matters. “This” may include all the things that seem so important at the moment, the goals, crushes, jobs, apartments, accolades, dreams, desires, memories, preferences, feelings…at times these can all swirl into a vapor and dissipate into the oneness of all reality. Wow. And then simultaneously, on the other hand..all the details, actions, words, choices, causes and effects, thoughts, and experiences do matter, they really matter, as nothing is hidden under the sun…
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Can We Celebrate Yet?
Who else is counting down the days for Pluto to enter into Aquarius? Those of us with birthdays in the last degrees of Capricorn, Aries, Cancer, and Libra are certainly ready for a reprieve. Not only are we the cardinal signs of the zodiac, upholding the responsibility as the initiator of the element we represent, we’ve also recently endured the divine wrath that only a Plutonian rapture can offer (and graduation is near). On March 23rd, this cosmic beast of a planetoid moves from the political to the technological, the art form to the dialectic, earth to air, and from patriarchy to humanity…
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Which Direction Is It?
Imagine a glass house dressed in exquisite interiors, humid from the indoor pool that wafts memories with the likeness of the local rec center from our childhood. Floor-to-ceiling windows inspire perspective and allow the morning light to pour in without warning, illuminating every corner. The temperature fluctuates, noticeably sensitive to and in sync with the surrounding environment. Vulnerability presents itself and yet there is a sense of strength and faith that the house will hold us powerfully through the storms, inside and out. What metaphor did we just live through up there in that sanctuary, three hours from the hustle and bustle of New York City?
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Hello?
Hi! Do you ever wonder if anyone is out there thinking or feeling the same things you are? I do as I get squeezed through the emotional plunges of an empathic flight through this moment of humanity. It is a wild time, that is for sure. Between the fluidity of genders blending into new types of identified beings beyond the human species, AI feeling sad, Ohio as the next Chernobyl, and imminent war in the air, I have all the feels. When I say imminent, it could be a couple of years off but I can smell it. And when my future senses are dialed in, I start living today in preparation for what is coming down the pipeline of life. The next step? Stay present…
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And What of Amor Fati?
A: Writing this week’s journal I was playing with the question, “Must I Accept This?” This question arose in response to simply being with what is so. When a loved one passes too soon, or thousands of lives are consumed by the earth and her tremors as has happened in Turkey. Or that I found myself in bed with the flu, so minor of course, and yet I still had to surrender to the fever that took me into its flame. Instead of the acceptance occurring as a forcing function, I rather look to my stoic and philosophical brothers such as Marcus Aurelius, and embrace the moment with all that I am…
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How Can I Feel So Much Light in the Face of Death?
Caroline Kane…A woman of love, integrity, laughter, and compassion. Her energy, so full of light. As she passed in these recent days, I remind myself to focus on the new direction of her light, omni in presence and unlimited in scope. And inside my heart, her light radiates as a brilliant fire of pure gold…
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Are You Your Past?
This question has arrived for me this week. Even with a boundless forward momentum running through me like lightning, I am observing the various pathways inside my psyche, and they run at very different speeds. In one flow of being, there is such joy and exuberance for what is possible. Though “everything is possible” is my favorite mantra, I am starting to have wild meditations comprehending the meaning of this more and more. It is almost disturbing to my senses to go into the “everything” part and yet, here we are in this very particular world of creation, destruction, and all that exists between…
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What's New?
Besides this moon? Everything. I wonder if you’ve had moments when you take a beat and look around your immediate surroundings, then go over to the mirror to look at yourself, afterward sit down and close your eyes and realize that everything you see is new. I’m having that kind of experience right now as I kick back and reflect on the recent changes in my life…
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Are Your Tears Salty or Sweet?
Three days ago: I was in the shower this morning and started to think of all the people I have met since coming to New York City. I felt a rumble in my deep inner realm and then observed as a rush of sweetness began to stream out of the corners of my eyes. My heart pulsed with light as an immense source of pure gratitude began to express a weeping that took me to my knees. Wow. I am still in awe as I type this, cozy in my robe, feeling the aftershocks of such a beautiful human and heartfelt experience. All I can say right now is thank you…
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Are You Retrograde?
Happy New Year friends…and happy continuation of the cocooning that is your natural and seasonal birthright as we remain in winter until the Spring Equinox. (I love run-on sentences.) Thus, there really is no actual pressure to be a “New You” on January 1st. Typically, in the Northern Hemisphere, the energetics of rebirth come when the snow melts and the sun calls us out of our caves and cozy sweaters…
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